Trust me on this

I'm an awesome person and yes I have flaws ( I don't mind admitting that) . I just have issues with trusting people ( men mostly). If you don't make an good impression with me when we first meet I tend to dislike you right away. I know each person has a story and you have to get to know them blah, blah , blah. I just know when I first meet someone I either like them or I don't ( granted I may have been wrong in a few cases but I'm  always right) I dislike a person for a reason until I see something that's worth liking then maybe I change my mind.

I guess I rather not invest my self with someone that  I will tell my secrets, hope, dreams and my time with when they can walk away and forget me or use the words I say against myself. I don't have much friends the ones I do have; I've known for years. I don't know if being the way I am is a good thing or bad thing? Am I ruining my self for friendships that I never had that I could. Am I turning away men that I could have something with because of this?


*side note MUCH ADO ABOUT MEN

I was talking to my friend and she stated I tend to come of a bit abrasive and "you said what"  kind of personality. Which is nothing wrong but it doesn't seem to attract the guys that I want, I don't want to change the way I am to get a man but I know I do tend to act put off and yes a little snobbish but I have my reason's and my blocks I just have to let some of them down. I like my self, I like my downs  and my ups and my many emotional scars and my physical ones. I love my body( even though I'm losing weight) I don't think I have to change the person that I see in the mirror everyday just to find someone.


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I would like to think I would change some of my ways be more open and not so judgemental to people I don't know as I come across them. I would change little things but I am who I am for a reason and I've lasted  24 year's being this way think I can last this way a couple more years and be happy with my self.