How good is change.

I'm in the friend zone. I don't know if that should surprise me or not; in my earlier post I kinda felt something happening but obviously it wasn't the good kind (or maybe it is). He wasn't ready and I can't hate him or feel anything other then okay. Because they're people in this world who are just not ready and then are those who are ready and those are the ones who suffer. I'm not exactly suffering or lovelorn but it hurts to slightly know that maybe your not good enough for this one person.  I can be all positive and boisterous and say maybe he couldn't handle me and I'm to good for a man like he was. There is  a lot of things I can say but it doesn't change anything we are still friends and I think we always be. I won't wait for him there is no reason for me too.

This is a lesson for me and I don't know if I liked learning it.

Everything Moves

I know it's been awhile since I've posted anything. I actually been busy nothing  important but going out with friends and working. I can say that I've enjoyed my life now then I have ever enjoyed it before. I can't say there is a difference from now then how it was before but I certainly feel different now emotinal wise and physicial.

I'm sorta seeing someone (gasp) it's strange how it has happen. I'm kinda figuring out the qualities you want in a person tend to go by the wayside or maybe there weren't the ones you actually wanted. A part of me feels like it won't last long like this is just a pressure cooker of emotions and we are both just waiting for it to be done. I'm getting all those  NEW emotions the butterflies, the smiling uncontrollably and general goodness but there are always doubts with those emotions and I'm trying not to bring them up and just feel them. I just need to relax and have things flow and flow and flow.

That's all I really got feelings upon feelings aren't they fun.